a vanillla smile pasted on
yesterday tomorrow's gone
i'm here for now
breathing in
i'll eat of this
no longer sin

the ever presence
the present tense
present sentience
making sense
A smaller bite
when bigger might do
there an overcoming
a little breath
when a fight might sprout
a little lighter now

sleep with my mouth open
rest now in peace
words falling forth not fouling
pouring flows of quiet brook
uneddied waters produced in
this heart

fecund bordeaux hidden beneath falling snow
i aim to please and failing that, I start a small fire
at a loss for what comes next. what do i...
and infinity cries out with tears and anguish
a leather binding broken loose,
the unshed fears come tumbling after
chasing one another first no last
ending all disaster - for feeling
for being and Am is the coming clean
the fruitfull stumble into seen


i need to break out - tonight the evergreens agree. this the first time. I shhhh out the window into the dark air and the trees smile. i'm with them - they won't destroy me. I grab a jacket and boots, slipping on moonlight. and I am light. I used to fight this so hard, kicking screaming - reveling in the earth my world, not enjoying a moment. now I am free of the stock that held me tighter than flesh. trouble get behind me now; trouble let me be. I take off, light footed because I am not held down, literally under no oppressive finger - performance, wrongdoing, do I shine like the moon? as faithful as the stars? am I the sun? i don't see it, but something has whispered 'don't worry about it' and I smile in spite of myself; I may never stop. I enter the wood and am awed that I feel no fear - not even a hint, here a forgotten memory of peace. I giggle and follow the path, treading lightly on a world of sensation, the living breathing all of me that's for me in every fashion. I smile like a moron and spin with my arms in the air. It's wild; i nearly smack a tree. My feet catch and a fall forward a few paces, laughing again. Today's a promise. This night hour is wreaking life on me. Most excellent! I walk and words and sounds and heightened senses so entirely captivate my attention that I step into the clearing before i realize it and find my old friend standing against a tree. Solidarity. i grin stupidly and throw my arms around him, feeling the who he is to me, how we get along, what we do together, why he's so great, that everything I've been given tonight is his just the same. that makes us one, this living by and experiencing all the ether and love proffer. Yes, thank you.
I pull away because he's uncomfortable; it was sort of a long hug.


i still. mine only hands uphigh
clear under waves
water weaves the lightshine frost
cool mist and gentle sands
humming mountains breathing trees
all of it all of this all the world for me

what life; the light that spurns the needlessness of dark
i perceive how the need for night will pass
and we, the remnant, will remain in daylight
all light - for All/Now/Am & Are

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Ryan Star

my help comes from the lord -

I had the impression for a while: relationship- i could see my idea of it and how it moved in me as a shape never concrete and that altered and moved ... then He removed the ties that held me to all of everyone so I might walk with him ... then he showed me what it means to fellowship him in me, by my emotions, by my reactions, by my soullish pleasures
!!Everything's a soulish pleasure!!
Then Friday morning at work I felt him move in me, like a slam-about in me gut and I said aloud (so it might be) 'Something's gonna change' and I only thought about it for a few seconds because I SO had no idea what that meant: then I hung out and came back to me, with brothers. Real brothers. I have scorned my soul to such great heights, for such lengths, for all the time I spent on earth. And now I am in it for fun and purpose. Refine me more, pull out the bits that weren't scraped on the first pass. I adore you, Lord. Be mine; I yours. Too true you sing and now we dance.
You're pretty cool, sir.