Freedom Christ

Who was Jesus ... is, sorry, who is Jesus.

The very name of Jesus has become so spiritualized and such an idol that we forget he was a man – like you and I – that he was tempted in EVERY WAY – like you and I – and that he somehow knew no sin. So what did he know? I want to know that.  Does CCU offer a class in that? Does Church?

God’s real. Who knew?

In EVERYTHING we’re under one of two masters: God or Satan (who's not God). Not-God has a stranglehold on all we know because he sits by the womb to consume men, so we serve him and the world and people and toil by the sweat of our brow until we hate and feel so thoroughly we’d never believe there could be another way. But Grace is to go free: Grace is to Change. I don’t have to remain what I have been. Or rather, I don’t have to remain who I have associated myself with. Satan told me I was gay. Then I said so. By my own confession I moved into this mode of living that changed my stature, my perception of my relationship with my dad, my ability to have male friends, the very things I thought I could be good at. Simply by adopting that frame of mind, that perception of WHO I AM, all my world turned into something pre-fabricated. Well, until something told me otherwise.
Perception is all of life: your boss tells you to do something and you get punchy because you don’t want to OR you do it gladly because YOU’RE THERE TO DO WHAT HE TELLS YOU. There’s life everywhere and we find ourselves outside of it more often than not because of the eyesight we've taken on. God's way is peace, and when you don’t have or can’t find peace – there you are. Located. So where is peace in those situations? God doesn’t vary -  he isn’t moved by your hellegiance. (I made that myself) He’s wroth with Satan whom you (I) have taken up with, and he comes to destroy Satan and his minions whenever we cry out. So he comes with fire to separate us from his/our enemies and we think he’s killing us because we so find ourselves in these things. Example:

Me: I’m gay.

Father in Faith: No you’re not.

Me: … No really.  Quite gay.

FiF: Mmm No. I mean, you can be if you want to, but why let that rule you?

Me: Rule me? I can’t help it! Why would anyone ever choose this?

Fif: Different reasons. What we choose is arbitrary; freedom is universal.

See the offense there? Rather than drawing out understanding from a man I trust with my life I sit and dig my heals in. All it takes is a ‘what do you mean?’ with a desire to know GOD (read: my self, freedom,peace, gentleness, longsuffering, spirit of self control, etc.).  God Is. Hence: I Am. So what are we? Small and temporal, wormy, disgusting, really really base? Uh...maybe. But Jesus died for us, so we're not that bad. He also called us brothers. God calls us his children. Since when can a father despise his children without first despising himself? Does God despise himself? I think not. My point is that he’s closer and lovinger than we have capacity for. But that’s why faith grows.