heart throes

'how do you perceive legitimate connection happening?', i was gently torn open.

i saw a heavy silver ball falling, cascading past obstacles, flying downward to hit upon a shredded ground,
flesh heart scraps that have been hoed and raked, scored to bleeding

hurt

but laden with potential
how pruning increases growth

a pained heart matures in the beauty of scars and wrinkles

connection?

hearts healing together

either at the same time or in fusion


i'm sorry you had a bad few days.
meh. it's just life. I'm actually enjoying it.


there is levity lightness illumination everywhere and always,
positive fruitive energy used for expulsion propulsion and the reaching
grow toward the light

wake up before you have to
exchange the evening life for a morning awareness
create you, flower as you go

touch connect

I am . dreaming?

flyover of city blocks, houses.

no. yes. I'm happy.

where the leaves fall and collect in the gutter
she sent me letters though she lived a couple blocks away.
she should have saved the stamp.
but snail mail is so good.

he was unabashed.
he liked me and said so.
I didn't expect it.
or know how to handle it.
sry. can't . like guys.
muh bad.
and so he stopped
because he knew what he liked
and what he wanted
and how to get it
and I didn't know any of that.
of course we never would have gone together.
He was younger than me and knew more
and .. why didn't I say yes?

I was afraid of change?
actually, it doesn't matter now.
I'll say yes moving forward.
There's no breath in the old stuff

simply letting him pass over me
opened my windows to a new way.
geez.
who knew people were important.